It feels a bit like this...

A sneak peek into my NYC birthday party a couple of weeks ago. Ever since then, life has been a blur, a lot like the way this picture looks: I see myself smiling in the past, but the rest is fuzzy and unclear. Ironic how my birthday dessert was one called "Chocolate Tears"--I love oxymorons like that, especially when it seems that my life is one big oxymoron most of the time...